February 11, 2012 · 2:59 pm
I can not believe that is 1 year ago (well really February 14th) that I went in for my routine Mammogram. A day that started out like many other – though because it was Valentine’s day I knew my husband and I would be going out for dinner at one of our favorite local haunts “Mima”. Off to the Dr.’s I went. I had my Mammogram, my ultra-sound and then straight to an exercise class. I was feeling pretty lucky because I had gotten in and out in just over an hour. No waiting. I should have known then that this wasn’t a good sign!
I had gotten home from the gym at 10:30 and the Dr.’s had already left the message that they found something. The rest of that day was a blur until the night. Then, recently John, the owner of Mima, and I were talking up this upcoming Valentine’s Day. He was happy to see that Scott had made reservations. I said it wouldn’t be Valentine’s day with out it, but it is also the perfect way to end a year of “Tumult”. You see last year Scott and I enjoyed a wonderful dinner. And over coffee and dessert (I had both because my lovely, thin, husband doesn’t eat sweets) I let him know about my day.
At first I think he was shocked that I had kept this news in all day…and I hadn’t called him at the store to tell him. How awesome was he! He put his hand on mine and said “I am sure it’s nothin’, lets’ take one step at a time.” I appreciated his calm strength…and I never told him I could see his true feelings in his eyes. The following week I had learned my biopsy results (Surprise, it was malignant…oh wait you know that already).
What amazes me so is that it is one year. 365 days. I just can’t believe how much CRAP I have shoved into that little time. But Wednesday morning I will wake up and say…Happy New Year and start over again. Day 1…Clean Slate, Clean Bill of Health, Clean House and Clean Clothes (you know cause Wednesday is the day I have the cleaning people come). And to celebrate, we are going on vacation. I have never looked so forward to it as much as I do this week.
To my friend Sue (who went through this after me) and to my new friend Susie (who is just starting her journey) I can’t wait for you to be on the flip side as well. and we can celebrate the hell out of your anniversaries…
So here’s to having Valentine’s Day as a just another Hallmark celebration, rather than one that reminds me of my past year.
HEARTS TO ALL.
Enoy the day!